Finally finished my OJ project 

For the Love of a Father...

There was a boy who never knew the love a father gives

Raised by his mum in anger for the man who left his kids.

The moment came in growing up,

when gates wwere open wide.

And the boy whose heart was wounded

walked to the other side.

His appetite for nurture,

to be given by a man

Had been left an empty vacuum

as he roamed about the land

He tried to stroke himself in closets,

hidden from the light.

but it never satisified him,

so he wondered into the night

Looking for the man who would make him feel complete,

he gave himself to do things that some would never speak

It always started with hope that his heart would heal

But each encounter broke him and left him ill.

Dying for affection which he wrongly sought in men,

he turned to others thinking they would understand

Instead they told him Sodom burned

for the things he had done.

"How could you hurt your family so?

You're such a sorry son''

Angered by the social pride that turns from darker things

The boy swore to desecrate the palaces of kings.

He bound himself in common course as he

who suffered long the anguish of public mockery

Parades were formed and marches were made

showing off their defiance

Hand in hand, in open view,

the stood in bold alliance

Supposeing they would win the day

and got what they wanted

They entered into loud debate

and publicly they pleaded

"Equal rights! We are deprived!

Treat us true and fair!

Your moral rules are meaningless

To them we do not care!"

The people, inflammed by fear

polarized their cause;

civil strife erupted throught

the breaking of God's laws.

What they had hoped would give them peace provoked a war

And a nation known for tolerance these things would now abhor

... and a boy who never knew the love of a father

Died a victim of a disease whom no one would bother

The answer to this problem lies within the heart of those

Who are filled with Christ's compession for the travellers who wrongly chose

We can heal their broken bodies

and restore their fallen hearts

If we'll only stop judging

by how they fell apart...

The little boy who never knew,

and yet became a man...

Can feel the love of Chrst in you if you would hold his hand...

Help him recover from the darkness of his fall -

For the love of God gives freedom unto all who will call...

Andrew

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KoF Rugal Bernstein when he was a good guy.... sigh.. dunno why he must become bad... 

Tidus - He is pronounced as TEE - ders 

My own wallpaper edited... =X nice? 

Squall and Rinoa... How I wish.. I was Rinoa..... sobz....  

Emotional Week........ Really emotional week,... Sad sad sad sad sad...

It will heal...
There is now nothing I feel...

Confused, bewildered, heartbroken....

I made the biggest mistake I made since June.... I looked back on my past...
Its been so long since I gave my heart to another person...
and as usual... it fell not to outstretched arms, but cold heart floor....

Shattering to a thousand pieces... I'm left alone to pick up the pieces...
Is it to much to ask?... to be loved... to feel loved....
I feel so alone... so lonely... so cold...

As I pick up each of the broken pieces, each piece pierces me.....
But I have no choice... I still want to live...

Soon I will freeze my heart again... and this time... when it freezes... I will definately seal it for a very very long time...

This week has been a really really emotional week for me...

I've lost my touch with reality when I focused so hard on reality...
Projects, friends, and... love....

Barely even 24 hours after I just cried for 7 hours in a row... My fren got irritated with me...
I dunno.. instead of comforting me... he said that he felt intimidated... because I was feeling sad?!!
I really dunno wad I to say...
He treasures his CSCC friends more then us... I just realized that we are just normal friends to him... and worse still he is drifting away...

My emotions were anger at first, then sadness and disappointment....

Within this week we were rushing like hell for the 4 projects which dateline is coming up very soon... We tried to do so much... but its just not enough...

I hope we'll be able to finish a neat project in time...

My emotions were stress, fear and worry......

Within my emotions that I felt this week, my heartbrokeness is the most visible... I lost my heart, I lost my love...
Every other emotion pales in the light of this...
So hurt... I injured my own heart... I cant belive it.... Not again....

5 days has passed, I spent 4 hours talking to myself, 3 nights crying myself to sleep, talk to 2 frenz about it, and felt like 1 idiot...

haiz... My emotions were sadness, heartbrokeness..... just mostly sadness... the epitome of sadness...

Sad... I'm just so sad.....
Each tear that drops down onto my keyboard is an invisible hand reaching out to heal my broken heart...
I must have cried a billion tear drops by now....